If I Talk to God

I really like the song, "If I Talk to God" by The Last Goodnight. And if you guessed, "and now she's going to post the lyrics," you are correct! Just as a side note, to you religious people, or maybe even non-religious, if you find that this song is offending, I don't mean to be. Well, I'm speaking for myself, it's not like I wrote the lyrics. Except they did remind me of a time that whenever I was in a desperate situation I'd "talk or pray to God", but to other people, it just looked like I was talking to myself again. Of course, my prayers are hardly ever answered. I guess in a religious person's eyes, it's because I'm not a true believer. It is pretty selfish of me to only pray when I just want to save myself from a bad situation, but I guess it could be a desperate reflex. It isn't like I'm completely against God's existence, even though I'm technically an atheist. I'd accept His presence if someone gave me some kind of proof or show me a miracle that occurred (not what they heard from a myth, but something that happened to them) that can't be explained besides it being God's work. Isn't there a word for a person who doesn't deny God's existence but doesn't really believe in Him either?
Anyhow, back to the lyrics as promised:
You're so fragile, I know,
Some things we cannot control.
I am so selfish, it shows,
I just can't let go.
Tell me three little lies,
Everything is alright.
It tears me all up inside.
If I talk to God,
I don't know if He's listening
When I speak out loud.
I don't know if He's home.
I'm talking to myself,
'Cause no one else is listening.
Stay another day
And will it all go wrong?
If I talk to God.
I hate the words that I said,
They lay so still in my head.
I hope I never regret
If I just let go.
Goodbye to time well spent,
I've got nothing to defend,
And is this really the end?
If I talk to God,
I don't know if He's listening
When I speak out loud.
I don't know if He's home.
I'm talking to myself,
'Cause no one else is listening.
Stay another day
And will it all go wrong?
If I talk to God.
And you can feel me when you fall,
When your backs against the wall,
And you know this town we live up in
Is the loneliest of all.
And you can feel me when you're down,
And when your world turns upside down,
I know this place we're living in
Is the loneliest of all.
If I talk to God,
I don't know if He's listening
When I speak out loud.
I don't know if He's home.
I'm talking to myself,
'Cause no one else is listening.
Stay another day
And will it all go wrong?
If I talk to God.
I will be the colors in the rain,
When you're lying up and wide awake.
Hold on, hold on, I will for you.
I will be the truth inside you lies,
When you close your eyes at night,
I will, I will, hold on, for you.